Story of my fucking life…
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Eating me away
Chasing down demons.
They’re buried in me
Sometimes it’s hard to see
But they eat at me.
I look into the mirror and don’t see myself.
Just the faces of regret
I’m sure I’ll regret this too
Let the self hate ensue.
I’m brought there again.
Faint images of myself
fighting my demons and making myself show.
Sometimes I’m so terrible to others because I don’t even know how to be nice to myself.
Find the source of the pain
Cut it out like cancer
If it stays it’ll spread and take you down
When do you say enough is enough?
When you can actually see the bottom
The bright lights
I’ve been told
It wouldn’t be a suicide.
Homicide, my demons killed me from the inside out.
Now I’m one of them. So let the hate hurt.
I am worse.
Look into my eyes. You’ll see the darkness.
There are no bright lights or gates.
You are now I’m the mind of a monster. Enjoy your visit.
A change in weather
My mood changes like the michigan weather
Frankly darling it shouldn’t be sunny in December.
I thought I got out of this rut and was doing better.
The feeling deep down that they are just going to leave behind also.
Today it’s sunny but still cold
A fake smile hiding a cold soul
Trying to convince everyone even yourself that you’re happy.
Tomorrow will be brighter.
Warmer.
Maybe this is just a losing season
But it’s just another rainy day.
It’ll be gone soon.
But let’s face it.
It’ll never stay away
Hopeless depression.
A seed planted in the spring should blossom.
But not for me.
Happy is all I want to be.
I’m not a weather man but I can see clear skies in the horizon
Keep my hopes as high as the sky.
Because my hope will never die.
